Wednesday, June 23, 2010

If It's Not One Thing, It's Another..

I've been promising myself, for the past couple of weeks, that I'd start posting somewhat regularly, but clearly that's a promise that's being pushed aside.  The truth is, while I've had passing urges to write, I never felt I had anything to write about.

But, somewhere back in my head, there was a nagging feeling that I should sit down at the keyboard and just get to it.  Was my life really so boring, that I had nothing to say?  C'mon!

Well- sort of.  Actually I've been juggling two things:  interviews for a job in Tel Aviv, and a frustrating series of medical issues that keep rolling in.

Oh- I guess I do have something to write about, but it's not what you might think:

I can hear my naturopath's voice humming in my ear:  "Maybe you've got all those medical issues because you really don't want to get that job."

A couple of weeks ago, I was almost listening to that voice.   After all, I've been basically at home for almost ten years- ever since we moved to Israel.   Sure, I spent a most of that time caring for my mom, and a good chunk of the past couple of years traveling, but when someone asks me what I do, I don't really have much of an answer- and that's something I never faced when we lived in the States. 

Once I got a taste of having some place to go regularly, I find that I'm itching to get out of the house. 

So, why did I get the shingles?   Why am I having mysterious painful flashes in my mouth?  Why are my blood pressure and pulse so low that my doc is sending me for an echo cardiogram?   Why did I tear a tendon in my sleep?

You know what- I don't care!   I feel like I'm living in a state of euphoria: nothing can phase me.  It's as if going through a cancer scare has made me 'despondent-proof'. 

I'm finding it incredibly frustrating to be house bound this week- that torn tendon is really putting an annoying crimp in my lifestyle.  


My motto is ever 'Always Look on the Bright Side of Life' and that's what I've been doing:

-  Good thing they haven't made a decision on that job yet- the longer they wait, the longer my leg has a chance to heal.

- Ditto for all the medical tests I've got to go through:  maybe I'll have  a chance to get them all done before I start working, so I won't have to take some half days as soon as I start a new job.

- Thank goodness they're taking their time:  the longer they take, the more sure I am that I want to get out of the house and work!

So, while I'm not quite saying  'Bring it On!,'  I can say that I'm not phased by all these little things.  My life is filled with love and laughter, and my head is filled with dreams and plans for future trips and the determination to make them happen.  Whether that involves a job in Tel Aviv, or finding other ways to finance my travels, I have no doubt that I'll find a way.   Self employment, consulting, painting, tutoring, or something new- that's all part of the challenge.   And, I love a good challenge!

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